Saturday, May 23, 2009

pre-cupids day

Friday the thirthinth, february 13, 2009, what was i expecting? Tomorrow is valentine's day. An ordinary day for me but every year, february 14 is unforgettable. Anyway, what could be the best to happen this day? After all, today is friday the thirthinth, some says it is a lucky day and the other half, it is cursed. Well, its different for me.
Its been a week since i haven't saw him. I refer him as Gener Pilapil. He's my long time crush. and somehow, its not just a crush for me. It's love. I am worried cause i can't even see his shadow. And, he's a junior and I can imagine a big red FAILED in his class cards. Where had he been? He can't just drop all those subjects. But after the long day of wondering where he is, i finally saw him. I asked my friends to come with me to take a look at them. we saw him. I can't explain how happy I am to see him on his class. Then he get out of the room and talk to my friends. He's so pale and became so thinner. Were not talking to each other, but its okay with me. Seeing him is better than not, right. after their talk, he waved goodbye. we follow him, and after he enter to our office, he paused to the door. He looked at me and smile. Eye-to-eye. I couldn't believe it.
Until i got home, i cant stop myself from smiling. Im so happy. Even if were not what i was hoping for, that smile is worth a happiness of a lifetime.

Friday, May 22, 2009

you and me, from a distance

from the stair i was sitting
i saw you greeting my friends
one by one
you look at 'em
smiling, saying hi
i was eager to see you
but that moment
a pang of jealousy didn't occur
not even a bit of excitement
whew..
i think i moved on

suddenly,
i was standing close to you
surrounded by friends
i felt my heart beats faster and louder
its hard for me to breath
i looked at you
hoping to catch your gaze
but only disappointment caught me
what was i expecting?
after talking and flirting with my friends
i thought it'll be easy for us
but it wasn't
so, i turned around
walked away
avoiding everything
anything that can upset me

but a question
popped into my head,
when i walked away,
did you care to look at me?