you and me, from a distance

from the stair i was sitting
i saw you greeting my friends
one by one
you look at 'em
smiling, saying hi
i was eager to see you
but that moment

a pang of jealousy didn't occur

not even a bit of excitement
whew..
i think i moved on

suddenly,
i was standing close to you
surrounded by friends
i felt my heart beats faster and louder
its hard for me to breath
i looked at you
hoping to catch your gaze
but only disappointment caught me
what was i expecting?
after talking and flirting with my friends
i thought it'll be easy for us
but it wasn't
so, i turned around
walked away
avoiding everything
anything that can upset me

but a question
popped into my head,
when i walked away,
did you care to look at me?